Wow! where does the time go? I didn’t realize I hadn’t posted in a while and a LOT has happened since my last post. So where do I start…accountability? new look (you are dying to see the pictures – don’t peek)? insights? new discoveries?
Recently, at the Journey’s Support Group, the surgeons came to our session – amazing how caring these guys are – and the time they put into helping us be successful. They reminded us of how we have to do the work – they simply operated on our body – the work is ours to do to create real success.
Let’s start with accountability (that is the most painful sometimes in this journey)…I strive to keep exercise at the forefront of my schedule…and it is difficult when it was never a priority before. However, I see the results when I do make it so it is becoming more and more important. So I am not making it to Zumba every week like I want to. But I have recently tried a yoga class and signed up for six weeks. I am convinced more and more that exercising must be, like many things in our lives, convenient and easily accessible. So I found a yoga class that is 5 minutes from my office, is designed for baby boomers and beyond, the instructor works with bariatric patients regularly and I can do it over lunch!
As I approach my six month anniversary (13 June), I look back with amazement with some of the “walls” that I have climbed over, through or walked around. I was having issues keeping solid food down and I constantly felt as though my system was irritated. The doctors suggested and did an endoscopy to check for scar tissue from the surgery (this is commonplace) and no scar tissue. They discovered a slight irritation that was caused, most likely, when I transitioned from mushy foods to solid foods. This caused some acid reflux – they put me on Nexium and the symptoms have been erased and I am able to keep solid foods down. This was probably a wall that I broke through once the issue was resolved – it was aggravating not being able to eat solid foods.
Guess what happens when you lose a lot of weight? Your shoes get too big – can you believe? Now what shoe size do I wear? Not sure but I know it is a pain in the tush (oh yeah that gets smaller also LOL)! Recently, I wore a blister on my heel as a result of my shoes rubbing from walking. Dressy Birkenstocks out there anyone?
So the update is 80#…and counting. Wearing dresses (yep! dresses!) and looking at clothes in the regular sections of the store. Daunting for sure. I’m not used to looking at the clothes of “normal” people (whatever normal is) – other people wear those clothes. I know you are dying to see it — my new photo!
In my recent discussion with my wellness coach, the subject of fear arose. I was describing how I am having a difficult time letting go of my plus-size clothes. They are my friends. They are comfortable. I know them. They are gone on many trips with me. I know it sounds crazy. So there are several questions that I ask – does letting go mean letting go of a part of me? What if I need them sometime down the road? Is my holding on to them setting myself up for failure? I have so many clothes and they are beginning to pile up and bug me – part of my vision for 2012 and beyond is less and less clutter (more on that later). So my coach and I agreed to a goal of me removing three piles of clothes and donating them over Memorial Day weekend. Wish me luck and help hold me accountable!
I am participating in Kathleen Ronald’s deClutter U for the next 12 months. In addition to decluttering my weight, I am learning that clutter can be in any part of our lives…it is not all about piles of papers, collections and stuff – it is also people, environment, schedules, experiences, etc. As part of this bootcamp, I am discovering the “stuff” that is cluttering my mind, my vision and ultimately blocking my dreams. If you haven’t thought about clutter in this way, I encourage you to do so. It is very enlightening!
I could spend the next few hours rambling on about all the new-found energy I am discovering or the way I am able to focus a better but I must also sleep. So I close with this thought – borrowed from my Mary Kay Director, Kellie Hammett – “I did the thing I feared the most, excuse me while I cheer! Now here I stand a braver soul and all I lost was fear” (EENSD Arlene Lenarz) … so the next time I post, I will have lost some fear (and clutter) plus a few more #!
What is it that you fear the most?
Until next time – stay healthy, believe in you and above all remember…it is a journey!
Happy Memorial Day and blessings to all our men and women who have given and are giving their lives for us to live in America!